My Dad was an exceptional Dad to me. Since my Dad has left this world, I have learned so much about him.
It's been 5 1/2 years and the hurt in my heart has been festering. Here is my honest vent.
My Dad left this world in ways I did not expect. I expected to receive a 'call' from my dad's current wife saying that my Dad had passed away. Instead I found out through a social media post my niece saw. Unexpected.
My Dad didn't leave this world in the dignity I expected him to. He was so good to so many. He was funny, happy, organized, caring and clean. Not the way he left. Unexpected.
My Dad was not given a service by loved ones, which he SO deserved. Unexpected. So those who loved me, showed up and gave him one. People who didn't know him came and paid respects and overwhelmed me with love. So unexpected.
My Dad left this world and not one physical memory of his entire 80 years of life was passed on to me or my sibling. Unexpected.
Not at all what my Dad would have wanted. Unexpectedly others who only knew him a small portion of his life made these decisions for him.
You see, God is the God of the impossible, unlikely and unexpected. God's ways teach us lessons to carry on.
As I have grown older and moved through the pain of this journey, I refuse to sugarcoat the end of my Dad's life here on earth.
I do know that my Dad gave his life to the Lord, he is in heaven. I do know that he loved me, no matter what. I do know that every memory with my dad of 55 years, is mine, in my heart.
My Dad was such a good father to me and I am grateful I had him.
My photos are one of the first ever taken and the last ever taken.
Start to finish.
I love you Dad. My heart longs for you. I know you are pain free and FREE of all this worlds chaos in heaven.
Forever your daughter. 🤍
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